Flashback to this pre blogsite post in 1997 (things were a little rough for me in the '90s)
"Life's twists and turns have taken me by surprise. I am not the man
I thought I'd be. If not for the ability to take delight in simple things I would have
left this realm long ago.
A new year ('98) approaches as I write this. I used to think the
revolution was coming sooner, now I doubt it will ever be.
I feel I may need to change my mind about saving mankind. It would seem to be a thankless
and impossible task. We need numbers to survive, yet these very numbers may be the
downfall of this gismo crazy world. Maybe we can build ourselves fresh bionic or cloned
bodies in the future, but what sort of life would that be?
Would our minds feel clean inside some neoprene machine?
So my fleshy organs push the buttons of this mind sucking monster and pours my synaptic
spasms onto the Delphian eye before you. What wisdom and dreams abound in the universe are
there to be found. I cling to mine and hope your capacity for absorbing and giving love
expands to embrace you closely to the bosom of all bliss."
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Today:
Things have gotten better some ways, and worse in others, but I'm more me than I've ever been before. Still learning to find the bliss. Pretty sure now though that the answer cant be found on the internet. Im pretty sure bliss comes in feeling vital, alive, powerful enough. Alive as in heart-throbs and thunderheads, babycrys and lovers sighs. Bliss is knowing other's happiness too.
