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I wish there could be a finality to this.  I wish I could go away, and not know you for several years - after that it would be ok.  But I can't do that.  To do so would be to not know my son, and so I am thrust into this hell.  Every time I come to pick him up, I see you.  I look into your eyes, and the happiness contained within floods into my heart, and I long for another chance.  You are the most beautiful thing I have ever laid eyes upon in my life, much less to be able to spend so much time with.  But I must, I have to find a way to peacefully coexist with you - it is in the best interests of our son.  Yet still...you are so alluring, so sexy, so enjoyable to be around and to talk to...it is so very hard letting go of you.  One day I will, but my love for you will forever remain, reflected back to me in your eyes.

Things come, things go

Doors open, and sometimes they close

Without you, where would I be?

Lost in that world, the one so far gone

The one that had me locked in

 

Where will you go?

Where will I?

Time will tell, but of the answer I am shy

You closed some doors, you opened just as many

And rightly so, I wander off into the night

When the tides of my dreams ebb
I am thankful I know what they are

Night journeys

Wanderings of an active mind
Searching for the hole
The me that was lost
At the Battle of Self

How does one regain incentive?
Desire, will, and dedication?
How do you want?
I wish for a great many things.

My work is my pleasure, my darling child
Progressed beyond the dreamborders I have
Into the swirling madness of a blissful affliction
Feeding on tasty morsels of poison

Saidin-like is that which I revel in
A baptism in defiled indulgence
It soothes my soul and rapes my mind
My self I long and ache to find

Wandering upon the shores of dream
Searching for tracks, for the way back
Away from this cursed jewel
This garden of rotten fruits

Shall not hold me imprisoned
Polluted, used up and thinned
The return is one of solitude and regret
Dirt-kicking and hunger

Hunger gives way to voracity
And upon the nothing do I gorge
The native insignificants,
Leaves and tubers of the path

Nothing to savor, a tidbit of blah
Unexpectedly refreshing and vitalizing
Pure life hidden amongst the normal
Healthy, nourishing and lean

Sometimes, when my world seems void
I crave the decadence behind me,
Itch for what may yet be,
And savor that which I am in.

[portion of message deleted - irrelevant to the purpose of this article] I took a listen to a few of your songs, and I'm impressed! I'd love to hear "Dreams of Another Place" on a big club sound system. Even on my computer speakers it sounds quite good, though. It's a very crisp, clean production, upbeat with lots of energy. The sequencing is right on everywhere. But "Khemikal Awakenings" goes even further. Gorgeous sequencing and effects! All the individual melodies fit so perfectly together, but are individually memorable, too. I like the way it progresses in a surprising way; you never know what's around the next measure. This one also begs for giant speakers. Or maybe THX in a huge theater--it would befit a high-energy film sequence for sure. I'll bet reviewers complain about the length. No problem here. I could listen to a whole CD of this. It would be great cross-country driving music! It's very imaginative. "Rara Avis" has a definite Kraftwerk tone to it, especially in the beginning. Certainly very Euro-sounding, and when I'm in a dance club (not often), it's the Euro stuff that always catches my ear. Another one great for either dancing or driving, with a steady progression that again is pleasantly surprising all the way through. Very rich melodically. Love the electronic "noodling" that begins around 4:00. Lots of twists and turns. I often find trance monotonous, but there's no chance of boredom with the constant change-ups you employ; they slide seamlessly from one to the next, making the listener try to anticipate what might happen next, and then, SURPRISE! It wasn't quite what he was expecting. I am NOT a huge trance fan, but I can get into this stuff with no problem. I may just burn these to a CD and take 'em out for a spin on the livingroom stereo later! (Smoke 'em if ya got 'em, as they say here!) -Ryk