Clear Sunshine   -  Blog

Today was strange. Got yoghurt throwed all over my cap, a little bit on my shirt, on my schoolbag, and also on my face (don't think dirty =P), and I owe it all to my Baby...Aww, man =P! But, after all, my day was quite okay, only f*cked up a pop-quiz about topography, so that's a little bit shitty...But okay, nothing more to add to this day, nothing happened...Oyeah, Momma's coming tomorrow, like, from Curacao...But yeah, that's all, quite boring @ home, nothing to do, only cleaning up. Now I'm combing my hair, trying to get an afro (again)...Quick description about my day...lol =P! But okay, gonna stop, so; Cya latah, Alligatah... Clear Sunshine.__ P.S: Still Ain't Mad, Doewshii (A)!

Ahww, Damn, today was Funny (title)! I woke up, thinking of only one thing: Flamethrowing. So I took a few cans of AXE, threw them in my bag, and then grabbed a lighter, and went to school. Just great how it was here in Holland; Quite windy; up to 110km/h. So I arrived, and then, in the first break, I took the cans, and the lighter, and started with flamethrowing. Also wrote a few words on the table, and then burned them on (nice sight =) ), but the greatest thing was the flamethrowing-accident! So, I sprayed a lot of AXE just on one spot, and then i turned it on, you know, and then I sprayed some in the open air, through the flame, and it almost had burned some people...The rest of the day at school was fun...Also the third break was fun, I was throwing some yoghurt, and then a friend of mine tried to hit me, but instead of that, he hit a teacher/leader of some sort of department. It was really CRAPPY =D Wuhaahahahahahah - lol. So, today was quite fun, but I'll go on later,,

Cya!

 

Clear Sunshine.__

Like...walking through a forest, with the sky that's some sort of shiny gold, with black clouds, and me just looking at the trees, wandering around on the path. Everything around me seems to be dead, like I'm the only one alive on the whole planet, or something. Like shit, it begins to rain, but it isn't regular rain, but acid...Then the sky turns green, and I can feel something chilly going through me...Then I can see this guy standing behind me, looking at me with his redish eyes. He's juggling axes, but still looking at me. Then he takes one in his left hand, and quickly throws it to me. Dodging like hell, I'm running away, and suddenly I can see him in front of me. END OF DREAM.

So, 4th note in my diary. Today was great, school ended early, so I could sleep all day, but suddenly Baby said to me that I had to come along, and go to the shopping mall. So, she said to me: you can pick something out, and I'll buy it for you. Just look at it as a christmas-present. So, I was all shy and nervous at the same time (grin)...So, after 10 minutes or something I got hold of a 2 pairs of gloves (without fingertops), and she bought it for me. Then, outside, she gave it to me...So, then she said that she and her friends are returning to school; I had to go back to home immediate, so there our path's split. Then I took on one pair of the gloves...Immediatly I felt some sort of might going through my body, just like feeling myself like some sort of warrior. It felt quite good =)...Also, the selftrust-level went up; I could really feel it rising, and rising...Together with feeling of love =$ Awwhh, man...So I came home, but my sweater was all wet. My father was screaming, and did want to curse =P but he didn't. Also lost my coat, though...But never mind that =P. So after the yelling-session he headed out, and I was thinking about leaving home, because this was already the 76th time that he was yelling, just because of stupid things, but later on, the thought flew away. So, this was my day, still need to update this diary to my history, and I will do that; promised =P.

Clear Sunshine (Sun's Returned).

This morning felt really crappy. It feels like my memories and my thoughts are controlling me. All I was thinking about the whole night, was about my Baby. How can you say something like this? It is so hard, it feels like I'm getting choked, by multiple hands at once. Just wanna grab the butcher's knife...But I can't! It is too hard...Too many thoughts, and too many memories, and too many speculations about life at once...I want to end all of this...really...

 

Think I'm Going to add Dates to the title, because it's American time, isn't it? I'm living in the Netherlands, that's why...