louwhoz

The end of the year always seems to hit me as both a revelation and a let down. There is the entire last twelve months to review and reflect upon, highs and lows, and then the relization that time is indeed continuing to move forward and we are fast approaching a new year. Here comes 2009 and all of the new challenges (and hopefully changes) that it will hold.

We will have a new President, I will become a parent, and both of these facts fill me with anticipation and anxiety. I'm not sure that I myself, or my country, are truly ready to face the sacrifices needed in order to achieve the results we hope for.

I find myself in a familiar situation faced by soon-to-be parents for millennia...what kind of a world am I bringing a child into? What quality of life will he have in the upcoming years? Am I responsible or selfish for getting pregnant in the first place? And I ask myself these questions as he is busy kicking away inside of me...

Lights and food and gifts and song celebrate the end of the dark and the begining of the light. I can only hope that it is not just for this season, but for the upcoming years, as well.